its been a while since i lasted posted, and the simple reason is that i have well and truly fell off the wagon. I am back to where i started. The reason is, I am not mentally ready to change my life. I know that may sound a bit like a cop out, but I am sure to change everything I want to I have to start by being mentally prepared, and at this moment I'm not. This month i have found very hard, every little thing seems to affect me hugely, and this has helped me lose my focus.
So my aim now is to get my brain in tune, so i can start the new year fresh and ready for change. I have two books on NLP that I am reading to get myself in tune. I wont post again for a few days as i enjoy Christmas with my family, then i can prepare to start afresh in 2009. It seem's to make more sense to start with a New Years Resolution. I just hope i can keep this one!
Saturday 20 December 2008
Tuesday 9 December 2008
Its been a while
I haven't posted anything for a few days, probably because I have still been feeling quite low. the weekend started badly with Friday being tough, I just don't seem to have the mental toughness I need. Little things seem to be having a big effect on me. As the weekend wore on I improved, but I still feel I am not anywhere near where i want to be. The exercising regime has failed miserably. The diet is still ok, and I have lost 4lb which is good.
My main focus at the moment is reading up on NLP. i really think this is something that could be very useful for me. I have only started reading it, but this could be just what I need. Its strange, but I started this blog because I felt inspired by others, yet that inspiration isn't enough at the moment to help me reach my goals. I feel my head just isn't in the right place. I have suffered from depression in the past and am sure it isn't anything like that but hopefully with the help of NLP I can get my focus. At this time of year it is natural to think of New Years resolutions. At one stage I thought about binning the diet and starting again in January. But no, I will continue looking after my intake of food, study the NLP books I have, so when the new year comes My brain is properly tuned to help improve my life.
My main focus at the moment is reading up on NLP. i really think this is something that could be very useful for me. I have only started reading it, but this could be just what I need. Its strange, but I started this blog because I felt inspired by others, yet that inspiration isn't enough at the moment to help me reach my goals. I feel my head just isn't in the right place. I have suffered from depression in the past and am sure it isn't anything like that but hopefully with the help of NLP I can get my focus. At this time of year it is natural to think of New Years resolutions. At one stage I thought about binning the diet and starting again in January. But no, I will continue looking after my intake of food, study the NLP books I have, so when the new year comes My brain is properly tuned to help improve my life.
Thursday 4 December 2008
A tough few days
Well i haven't been having a good time of it. I cant really get my head round why. I don't know if it is a culmination of different things happening in my life. Problems at work and worries with my family. Fortunately i can come home to a happy loving home and it really is making the difference to me. I don't know if my wife and daughter know how much i appreciate coming home to people who love me, but it really is helping keeping me sane.
The diet is going well, no junk food, but maybe i could be doing better with the 5 a day. But that 11 days in, the longest i have ever managed, so that's something i should be happy with.
I recently bought a book called NLP at work. I heard about NLP from my mate Pat who is using it to help him beat cancer. This book is aimed at the working environment but can be used in all aspects in life. It helps you to train your brain to help cope with every situation. This is something I am definitely in need of. So i will give it a try and see how i get on.
The diet is going well, no junk food, but maybe i could be doing better with the 5 a day. But that 11 days in, the longest i have ever managed, so that's something i should be happy with.
I recently bought a book called NLP at work. I heard about NLP from my mate Pat who is using it to help him beat cancer. This book is aimed at the working environment but can be used in all aspects in life. It helps you to train your brain to help cope with every situation. This is something I am definitely in need of. So i will give it a try and see how i get on.
Tuesday 2 December 2008
Faith
No not the religious type, but in humans. I am finding it quite hard to have any faith in anyone just now. I have long been of the opinion that you should put your trust in people. But I am finding it increasingly hard to, and I'll be honest, I don't like it.
Two incidents at work haven't helped. A disagreement with a colleague over two employees, where the argument verged on the ridiculous upset me on Friday. the colleague is someone I would have considered a friend. But the aftermath has left a bitter taste. The other incident was a guy who works under me, who is leaving next week. He asked for time off for his kids Christmas play, and i told him to make up the time or take a half day holiday. This was all in email, so i got a snotty email back where he also copied in my boss. This is a guy who gets time off for every hospital appointment, every time his car breaks down. He has recently came under my supervision and clearly doesn't like it, but his reaction tells me so much about him. And I can't help feeling disappointed. But it probably says more about him than me. I really need to learn how to let go quickly of these thoughts in my head that i let play over and over again. I know in both occasions I was right in what i was doing, but the reaction of those involved has told me a lot about the human condition, and how little trust we can put in others.
The diet is still going strong, but having real difficulty getting the exercising going. It snowed here today, and the cold weather is keeping me in bed, but I know that is an excuse and I need to be stronger!!
Two incidents at work haven't helped. A disagreement with a colleague over two employees, where the argument verged on the ridiculous upset me on Friday. the colleague is someone I would have considered a friend. But the aftermath has left a bitter taste. The other incident was a guy who works under me, who is leaving next week. He asked for time off for his kids Christmas play, and i told him to make up the time or take a half day holiday. This was all in email, so i got a snotty email back where he also copied in my boss. This is a guy who gets time off for every hospital appointment, every time his car breaks down. He has recently came under my supervision and clearly doesn't like it, but his reaction tells me so much about him. And I can't help feeling disappointed. But it probably says more about him than me. I really need to learn how to let go quickly of these thoughts in my head that i let play over and over again. I know in both occasions I was right in what i was doing, but the reaction of those involved has told me a lot about the human condition, and how little trust we can put in others.
The diet is still going strong, but having real difficulty getting the exercising going. It snowed here today, and the cold weather is keeping me in bed, but I know that is an excuse and I need to be stronger!!
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