Tuesday 25 August 2009

on my bike(again)

picked up my bike after having it repaired, final cost £123.00. Went out on it last night, and it was a bit of a struggle. My back didn't hurt which was positive. I am going to head out on it again tonight, just to get the legs working again, then on Wednesday I will get back on the kettle bells. The tightness in my back has all but gone, so if I carry out the swings correctly I shouldn't have too much trouble.
the last few weeks i have really felt lethargic but am feeling better now, and am ready to get back to where I was, exercising each day. I have been scribbling down a programme with alternates between kettle bell swings, cycling and running, and will start it proper next week. This week i will keep myself busy each day getting back into the swing of things. I also have a busy schedule with my mum this week, but more on that later.

Tuesday 18 August 2009

i tried to swing the kettlebell last night but my back still aches somewhat, not that much, more that I am paranoid about doing proper injury to myself. I will try and do a little each day to slowly build up confidence again.
The bike goes in on Thursday for a service on Saturday, so hopefully on Sunday I will be out and about again. I have surprised myself how much i have missed being active.
i have a meeting with the hospital and my mums carers next week, her progress is going backwards, and is causing some concern. I speak to her at least once every day and have noticed she isn't so motivated as she was. Others have noticed this hence the reason for the meeting. It isn't until the 26th of this month so we will need to wait and see.
Saturdays match against Celtic, lets not go there. I am so depressed when it comes to all matters AFC, its all doom and gloom!!

Saturday 15 August 2009

back in the groove

i haven't posted for a few days. Two reasons. First, i have been on holiday. Secondly I have hurt my back and been out of action. The two coupled together means there has been no progress, but you know what? I don't care. I am happy that I will get back on and make the progress I was making. The two weeks where everything was going well felt good and I want that back with bells on.
Lets start with the holiday. We didn't go anywhere but had days away here and there and it was great to be away from the office and the sanction of my family. Aisha starts Primary 2 next week and it is great to see her progress and grow up. Kim also seems a lot happier. She starts back at the university in a couple of weeks and the extra cash will be a huge help!
Okay onto my back. I managed to hurt it in two places. The first was picking Aisha up without bending my knees, as soon as i lifted her I knew i had done something. It was a dull stiffness more than anything else. It didn't lay me out but it certainly restricted me. Then i managed to hurt myself in bed!! i twisted my back and felt a sharp pain beside my left shoulder blade. This made movement more restrictive but the dull pain in my lower back disappeared!!
I was still able to function normally though sitting down was fine but when i stood up it took me a couple of seconds to adjust. When the lower back hurt i tried the kettlebell but it wasn't happening.
My bike is also still out of action, but is going in for a service to the Edinburgh Bike Co. on 22nd August, it will be good to have it back in tip top condition and to have more trust in it!
One major change has been i finally had that conversation with my brother. I felt and underlying tension between us and didn't like it so decided it was better to ask him than to avoid it. So we went for a few drinks last Saturday. I asked why he hadn't spoken to me about going to Australia and he said it was because he felt bad about leaving me the responsibility of looking after mum and dad. I told him i would rather have that responsibility than to loose my best friend and everything just felt right again. We still have more speaking to do, but the beer was taking hold and the time wasn't right. But i am so glad we talked. a lesson i will learn for the future.
Today is the first game of the football season and i am off to Pittodrie, and it is pissing it down. What has happened to the first game sunshine we are used to. A hard game against Celtic but my optimism is still there, just!!

Monday 3 August 2009

Put your back into it!!

it hasn't been the best over the last few days. I was playing with Aisha and picked her up and strained my back. Nothing too serious but it has hampered my progress. I don't think there is any lasting damage, and i am trying to keep as active as possible. I have been off for a few days holidays so things haven't been so intense, and i have some more days off this week then i really plan to push things on. I need to chart my progress, so i can see improvements, the point of keeping a blog!! I still feel very positive which is important. I know i can do this and am focusing on how good i will feel at the end of this journey.
The bike will be going in for a service this week. It will be good to have faith in it and for it to function properly.