Interview

I just found out i didn't get the job. How did i find out? one of the girls i work with went for a job in the newly created department and was interviewed by the lad who got it. Nice way to find out. Tells me everything about my employers!! A New Year A New Job!! I have been assured a job is here for me which is some comfort with Christmas so close but the new year will see me put all my effort into moving onwards and upwards!

its been a long while since i posted anything, and i will get back into the swing of it, but not just yet. This month has been a nightmare, and my ability to cope is weakening. Two weeks ago we got the dreaded redundancy letters, 15 out of a group of 80. As you can imagine a grey cloud has hung over everyone since, even more so when we started to find out who was safe and who wasn't. If your face fitted, you were in!! Today i have a job interview for my own job, a hob i very much doubt i will get. I then have to hang on in and hope i don't get paid off in the new year. What a great Christmas this is lining up to be. e then found out last week after Aisha was tested for Autism at her school, that a similar test was done when she was at nursery age 3, and that the results showed she came slap bang in the middle of the autistic spectrum. Not on the edge!! Slap bang in the middle. were we told? No you better believe we weren't. It boils my blood to know that the suspicions that Kim has had for years had foundation, but it was never shared with her. Crazy, absolutely crazy. The second test they done showed she is still within the spectrum but because her communication has improved she is further outside than before. As the letter from the psychologist said, "Aisha is a complex wee girl" I have still to phone the psychologist, i have decided to wait a few days so i can remain calm when we speak.
I also feel like shit, with sore muscles, a sore throat and very tired. Kim thinks its swine flu, i think i am just getting old!!

NLP

I am still plugging away at the Structure of Magic, my god it is a heavy read. I am reading about the meta model at the moment. Truth be known, the book is to deep for my limited knowledge and i jumped in too deep with this one, but I will see it through to the end.
We are still waiting for word of the Autism testing, most likely into the new year. i continue to go running/walking, wishing the sun was out and i could be out on my bike. The hours i work means i don't see much Sun, but I don't suffer from SAD, so it doesn't get me down.

Friday the 13th

Last night i went out in the pouring rain for a run. It was very hard work. I used the interval training method, switching from sprints(well my form of sprints) to a jog or walk. Really struggled near the end but felt good for it when i got home.
Today I managed to get an emergency appointment at the dentist to find out i have an infection and will need root canal treatment, great!!

Hells Bells

Spent last night clearing the garage. Finally swung the kettlebell again, and it felt really good. My thighs were really burning by the end but it felt good to be at it again. With all the distractions i forgot that exercise really helps to clear the mind, to help you focus. I wont forget that again.

a step closer

Kim had a meeting with the doctor about Aisha today and he agreed to do the 5 tests required to diagnose Autism. After a lengthy chat he agreed it seemed less likely she had selective mutism and more like she is on the Autistic Spectrum. This has left me feeling strange. I am glad we may be moving closer to finding the cause of the problems, i feel bad that i doubted Kim, and i feel sad that Aisha has more problems to deal with. But tonight will be a family night with lots of cuddles and fun and games. If its dry we will go out to watch the fireworks.
Last night we went to the university library and stocked up on some books on Autism. I also managed to pick up the Structure of Magic I & II by Richard Bandler and John Grinder. I am going to go full steam ahead with NLP to see if i can help myself, but more importantly use it to help me understand Aisha better and to help her.

Stuck in the Middle with you

The last few days have been a struggle. Lets start with Aisha. Her wetting herself has returned to a daily event. Her behaviour with Kim is also getting worse. Kim has broke down a couple of times lately, and seems to have taken as much as she can. There has been a lot of tears. We had a long talk on Monday. She is convinced Aisha has a form of Autism. We have a doctors appointment with the pediatrician that has looked at Aisha since she was born, and will raise the concerns there. Kim had listed all the issues she has with Aisha, some I see, some I don't. But what is clear to me now is i must support Kim 100% at the moment. I really don't know what to think. I have read a bit about Autism and it seems to me Kim is clutching at straws but what is clear is that discounting it at the moment is pushing her away and making her feel isolated which i cant do. She needs my support. So everything has to go on the back burner just now, my full concentration is Kim and Aisha. I have shifted my work day to start at 6.30am so i can get finished earlier, though working in the oil industry means that's not guaranteed. i have to be there as much as i can. The balancing acts comes with my mum. I have to be there for her as well, but not to the detriment of Kim and Aisha. So far she is back home and coping fine, long may it continue!!
I went out to Inverurie last night to collect my old car, it had been with a mechanic getting work done for me to sell it. When i got there the engine was dead and there was about an inch of rainwater on the floor of the drivers side. The smell of mould was evident. Just what i needed!!!!