its not been a great few days. My mate Dave was taken into hospital this week with bad stomach pains. That was Tuesday. I went up to hospital on Thursday to see him. He reminded me of my dad when he was ill. His head looked too big in proportion to his body. He has wasted away to nothing. When i went into his room his girlfriend was with him. His jaundice had returned. He said they suspected the cancer had got into the liver. This hadn't been confirmed but a CT Scan had been run and he expected the results on Tuesday the 13th.
the stomach pains were caused because he couldn't pass anything. He had to have an enema to relieve him of the pain. While in conversation he also mentioned he was now diabetic. Like it was a normal every day occurrence like watching a soap opera!! We chatted about diabetes, as my knowledge of the subject has increased greatly over the last few months. I tried to lift his spirits, tried to put a smile on his face, tried to be "normal" whatever the hell that is, tried just to be a friend for him. Then yesterday i got a call to say the specialist had visited him and advised him the cancer was very aggressive and there was nothing they could do for him. He wont see this Christmas. He wont share his daughters first Christmas with her. He wont see his 41st birthday. life just seems so wrong at times. A nicer guy you couldn't meet. to watch him deteriorate has been awful. To watch him die will be tragic. I am going to give him and his family some space before I visit. I know it will be the hardest visit I have ever had to make. Knowing someone has been dealt a death sentence, but I will make it, because however hard it may feel like for me, its not a scratch on how hard its going to be for Davie!